Eguzki,
Somehow I believe I have betrayed you, for feeling the way I do, about many things it seems. You had to give me life with the Zerui even though you and I both know I would fair better with the Ekaini.
How can I lead my fathers people with no wives and no heirs? Sooner or later my God, people would begin to realise my intentions and perhaps go to extremes. I've thought about running away, but then my loyalty always drags me back. How can I leave my mother, my friends...and my siblings?
Sometimes I wish you did not give me Amaya and Zeru as a first born son, because of that my brother hates me and my sister too because they are so close. When we were young I remember we would play, but then his mother died and he changed. I long to share a brotherly compassion with him, and yet I have to play superior because of the sake of my people.
If I left him, if I left the Zerui. How would they fair as Inakii? If only you could show me the future of our Baskar, what would happen if we became the Xantii, or I left the role to my brother.
I do not ask a lot of you great Eguzki, only that you lead me in the right direction.