My councilor makes it sound like I am insane. Sure I played chicken with a train and then cartwheeled across a busy highway that doesn't make me Insane! Argh!
My life isn't going so smoothly. I lost my cousin Laura, three of my cousins are in the hospital..and I am worried
My cousin, Kate, is in the hospital for terrible breathing problems, she started coughing 6 days ago and then it gradually got worse, she collapsed so I called an ambulance. They saved her life last night, she stopped breathing. My other cousin, whom I love calling Ed, because his first name really is Edward, is in the hospital because he tried to commit suicide by stabbing himself in his stomach because someone teased him about not having a mom or dad. Its true, too. and you know Reiku? She´s in the hospital. She got into a car accident and is in for serious injuries and a high fever from a torn appendix. they don't really know exactly what happened but it had something to do with a car and they found her 58 feet from the car with a killed driver in the front seat. She looked like she had been completely torn apart. The driver was known as her boyfriend´s brother. Sad and Ironic, ain't it?
In a few weeks I have a doctors appointment for a few blood tests, all that yadda yadda, x-rays... all those tests... To see if I´m okay. Well I can assure you, I´m not okay mentally right now. I cried for two friggen hours today because Stacy thought Chris was two-timing me and it wasn't my Chris, it was Kali´s Chris. Get what I am saying? I still cried even though I found out it was a mix-up in words.
Kali´s birthday is next Thursday and she is having a sleepover party on Friday night.
I hope I get to go, I mean, she is my best friend.

thats horrible

i tried to commit suicide last year because these kids were making fun of me.. sometimes i still wish i could die.. but lik yeah

i hope things get better..i knoe how u feel right now.. i feel lik that... i've lost people close to me.. so lik yeah, i'm kind if feelilng the same way..

:( Im sorry things arnt working out for yas aly...I really am. I also tried to kill my self last year because these kids were torchering us, callings us, "Full Mental Fags" just cause we liked the show. And Now in middle school, we're "Naretards"
Sigh, i wish i could help, /.\ im so usless...

Aly i'm so sorry to hear that. I wish i could make every thing better but i don't have magica power *sigh* Well I understand about bestfriends, and not being there for you and getting mixed up belive mee i get mixed up all the time. Anvice is not my strong ponit yes i'm usless. Well they say that if you vist people in the hospital and talk, there is a better chace of them staying. Thats all i have to say but chicken with a train, i need to come over and try that (i think he will swerv first) Well I Hope everey thing works out.