My life has been put on hold. if I ever had one to begin with. You guys know I took up drawing, don't you? I've gotten really good at it, they're all in a notebook in my backpack.. But there's just no one who appreciates my work except for my family and my boyfriend, Chris. There is no creative writing class at my school, no one likes what I have done. Nobody. I can't share my drawings on the internet because the scanner is broken. Should I just quit? is there no one who appreciates my fanworks? It's sad...I just don't bnelieve it..

I visited my mental doctor several weeks ago, and not to anger a certain person, I always knew I was bipolar. and schizophrenic, but those symptoms didn't arrive until early this year. I don't believe it but I knew it.

It happened again. I remember last december, the night before my concert in Choir, I passed out....and it happened this afternoon again. Only this time my mother wasn't home. Should I tell her? or not? I don't like her worrying about me. My head still hruts really really bad.
I can't believe it. What's happening to me?

I freak out, as in "Go insane" whenever I get angry, or in a different "Freak out" I hallucinate as if I had a fever. Right now I've actually got one. 102.3. @_@ It's stupid...I know... I'm afraid of going to the doctor for whatever pain I have because I am afraid of tests and scans. really bad.

~Aly

wow, no u shouldnt giv up drawning, no one enjoys my artwork either especially my mom she says "it's stupid, you dont hav talent giv it up." so then i draw because i want to and just to get on her nerves :D nd i wish i could go to the dr.'s and see if i adhd, people say itz obvious i do from the way i act but my mom declines it because shes afraid if i do she may go crazy because she dosnt want a child with such problems or something idk. but nways dont giv up drawning and i hope everything worx out. and how do u knoe u pass out??!?! idk i've always wondered...

o yea and i knoe this is a doubl post thingie but my grandma also hates scans and tests badly!!

I know I passed out from the feeling in my head, this case might be different from others.
I just spaced out my brain kind of went on hold and quit working for a few minutes and I blacked out. THE SCANNER'S FINALLY FIXED!! WEOO!

o0o0o i think i passed out once.. i dont knoe, but i've always wanted to hav Amnesia so that maybe i could become a better person rather than a crazy retart, not that i dont like being a crazy retart ^.^ iz just that if i be normal people wont view me as a retart ^.^....

You shouldn't give up on drawing, Aly! It is something you enjoy, and you ARE getting better. And you know what? Those kids at school probably don't even know the difference btween a pencil and a pen.... :angry:

And Aly, I've practiced drawing for the past 3 years, and I have improved greatly from my orginal drawings. Everyone has to start somewhere. You have to learn how to walk before you run. Practice is how everyone gets better.

With the medical problem, it would really be best to tell your mother. If you don't, the problem will get worse and worse, and it is possible you may have to go to the hospital for a very long time, where they will have conduct even more tests and scans on you. If you just go now, there will be less scans and tests then if you didn't.

yea dread's right,u should tell yo mom, at least ur mom cares about! my mom dont care about ma medical problems caz she a retart so u should tell ur mom since u can ^.^

I told her in a phonecall at school... she just told me to take Tylenol.. x-x;

and thank you again, Dread. ^_^