How disturbing. I've been on....4 days in a row. Each time saying I won't be on til next week. Pathetic. One of my few journal entries where I won't speak in generalizations, how bland.

Well ...Not that I have much to say but, here let me put this in total frankness-
What. The. f**k.

eh....no poetry today....that greatly takes away from anything I have to say. Well let us feed the gossip mill then I guess.

Standings and opinions: Hey I'm not going to be around here much longer to deal with any collateral this may cause, even though this should be kept to myself, seeing as I'm in a negative mood. Pretty disgusted with myself eh.

Let's start off ;

Myth- Eh good friend kind of insensitive and tends to misunderstand things though, but still cool. I don't know...jaded in some ways, congenial in others. You really don't tick me off that much.
Dark General- Can be cool. At the moment I have 5 words. Stop. Talking.Down.To.Me. You are not gods gift to earth, your opinions would, yes, matter to me if you'd stop shoving them down my throat. Honestly man I'm disgusted with your pride, conciet, ignorance, and disdain towards the opinions of others. You did not 'cure' me . For f**k's sake. Get off it!
Michiko- You're alright. You tend to be very niave, but still alright. I can probably forgive you more easily than most people I guess because of your ...problem with emo/soc. interaction.
Kraxydog- I don't really understand you. Half of the time I think I'm boring you to tears the other half makes me think you must be a really good actress.In some respects I wonder if I should have even told you any of it. Or anyone else for that matter. My conscience is yes clear..but the original plan was to be already gone from here....ah f**k it. Blunt translation: I'm glad you think we're good friends but honestly I look back at any corresondance and wonder how i haven't obtained DG status . I don't know
Yuzu,Faith,Riya, Dread, ect- You have my respect but in all honesty I try to avoid you.
True Alchemist, Chrono, Black Rose the death alchemist, etc etc etc- For god's sake just leave. Leave the forums. Leave me alone. You cause your computers PAIN as they transmit your regurgitated drivle.

Oh lovely blood! Wonderful. Ah well- no I don't know what is wrong with me at the moment, yes I'm being impulsive, rash, stupid. Somehow being online does this to me. Oh right maybe its because of all this **** I create for myself. That could be.

Blood Metal- Honest to friegging god. What the f**k is your problem. What. The. f**k. You're mentally derranged obviously.GET OFFLINE. creep. ick. you are NOT the victim here. Dear lord get over yourself. Stop being emo, stop the violent moodswings. Live your life .

agh,frustrating. Well...atleast its cause for some PM s to be sent back and forth

>>
<< so what is this, goodbye version 2 or something? If so then byeee~

if not I didn't really see the point in this confession or..what ever..>> xD

eh ill figure it out when I get home. -in school-

Myth note the tone change throughout. And utter randomness. The begining is semi believable..sounding like something I'd say, the middle is not phrased as I would say them and with an off tone to the emotion. The last one is completely off and at odds with my personality. Yes given I do have violent violent moodswings,though this was just a product of rather...insecurity? As oppossed to anger. You know as well as I that I continually test for reactions. The backfire is how many times I do it. pfft. Well regardless reasoning for this i guess ascertaining reactions and standings with everyone, depending on whether or not these opinions are true or which ones are for that matter, you can discern

Ok now, the emotional response to keep the drama up ;)

So you're saying that naything to do with my opinions or emotions is irrelevant or without point. Gee thanks.

(not to really pick another fight) Basically what your saying is everyone stop bothering you, you have enough problems as it is and most of the Admins act like gods on the forums the mod over.



Wow glad im in the category that just says "go away" which you lost me at by the way.

Stop twisting my words, look at what you posted. It clearly says you wont be around much longer which basically means your leaving, So I thought it was basically a goodbye heres what I thought about all of you speach because, as you said, you wouldn't have to deal with the after math.


And no Tyler thats not what he is saying, basically BM is tired of this "Fantasy" as she has called it before, and doesnt understand whys she keeps logging on. The admins here do not act like gods they are hardly ever here to do any of the sort. Stop jumping to conclusions that everythign is the ADMIN OR MODS fault because its not, i notice you keep poking your nose in that reigon of our buisness and you best be carefull before I smash it in the doorway. Its getting old.

Now, back to bloodmetal. Quite frankly I don't know if I can honestly say I know your real personality enough to decifer any of it, you'd admit you lie too much, Sure a lot of the lies are shiftable but some aren't. there are just too many variables.

Also since this is all just for drama and expressions/reactions it really isn't to be taken seriously because your real emotions or opinions wont show till who the hell knows when, and all anyone has to do till then is wait and wait and wait.

So, till then my friend, till then~

I was always told I was a bad sorry excuse for an actress >>;; But... yeah... If that's what you think then, I have nothing more to say. I won't force you to believe me. :huh: XP We bear no grudge, k? XD

And you bore me? More like the opposite >>;;.

actually there was supposed to be a question mark at the end of the sentance there

What I said

Basically what your saying is everyone stop bothering you, you have enough problems as it is and most of the Admins act like gods on the forums the mod over.


Actually what I ment

Basically what your saying is everyone stop bothering you, you have enough problems as it is and most of the Admins act like gods on the forums the mod over ?

And actually the ones who usually have the power for a lond period of time abuse it.

Thats wonderful but once again the ADMIN are never here to bother ANYONE, and BM probably isn't talking about only this forum but people he knows outside of it too that just gets to him.

And in reality everyone abuses power in some form of another because where all human, but it is rare that it has happend here. And I still think you are out to hate the Admins..or at least blame everything on them.

LOL I dont know enough about any of the admins here to make that judgement. The only admins I hate are ones from VS, and GoW. And unless you play Mercs for at least 6 years you have no clue who I'm talking about.

As for me own statement it was in response to that

Blood Metal- Eh, I understand. I don't take any offense if you think that I do. Anyway, if you're leaving again, (it sounds like you are) I hope you have a good time away from the Forums. I'm sorry that I don't really know you, but as many people have said before, you sound like a very intelligent person. Bye...

expecting.

Arguementative, oui? Hmm response response who's go the response.... I wasn't twisting your words in anyway, in fact I didn't even quote them. I was simply stating that the variety in voice, shifting opinions, etc etc etc should be duelly noted. I don't type these things up and just forget what I say. Yes, this was intended to piss people off, to gain a response. I do dislike being on here yes, but no this was not my declared goodbye. After the newest development in the 'Blood Metal Case' I thought it rather predictable to go around testing reactions.

Explain please? The only thing I pointed out was that despite lying and being a derranged sort of sick person, was that continually I do test for reactions. Most people who lie will generally test for reaction, most people who are unsure of their footing, or insecure, will test.

Uh huh. No response here. None. Nada. For various reasons.

Finally! the only accurate piece. And the only person to get angry. In my own response ; first part is all true, and many things are getting old like this; i should leave I'm so f**ked up lie lie lie blah blah blah guilt! thing I keep doing. Anywho there atleast someone who understands this...well...understands how to react ..in the...way according to society.Ill phrased...

Where....did you get that from *looks up and down over rant* Are you just noting most of the people I mentioned were mods? Let me explain why;
They are the people I hang out with most of the time...seeing as 2/3 have been here a long time. Also...the fact that they are mods most of them I have a part in that. Here's where you get to see my overbearing arrogent self:
Krazy was best for the Roleplaying Moderator Position, much better than the current (Japanese Princess) So I got her that spot.
Roy...roy is roy eh. Jack of all trades I guess. I had originally given up my moderating positions for him (Edwards Place, Roys trashcan) and then eventually convinced to trade those in for Roleplay mod as krazy's partner. The smallest role I had was in his being fuhrer where I gave him my 2 votes.
Dark General I had nothing to do with this one. Nothing at all. Pure coincidence.
Michiko...eh heh heh ..long story short...nothing to do with...actually very against.

One of the few people I didn't point out faults to ..thank you for your understanding as always but honestly I wish it weren't there.

Intelligent...thank you that was generous. Moral on the other hand ...wish I had that...working on it . This was not intended as the "I'm leaving!...again" piece but that you anyways.

Righto.....add flames to the fire.....are you intentionally doing that or what...honestly I can't tell :lol:

Ok again a true statement :rolleyes:

Rigggggggggghtttttt. About that one. The opinion of myth was exaggerated.
The opinion of krazy was exaggerated. The opinion of DG was sadly true and I thank him for the apology. Dread, faith, riya , etc etc etc...I don't avoid you, I do respect you but I don't know you. Everyone else....yeah you can leave. Michiko....uh....hmm..yes easier to forgive in some aspects....but otherwise that was randomly...strewn

How did I loose you? Did you fall off on the over the top emotional rollercoaster? And yes you may go away now.

Ok true statement! This **** is all unorganized and very frustrating. Of course I did know what was wrong with me ...and yes impulsive rash and stupid. I do create too much for myself.

Ok.
Wow.
Really what IS your problem? Not derranged maybe but certainly.... :blink: sick?...creepy? yeah ok. Yes arrogance this is something I tend to push as a forefront and center , arrogence = confidence. Emo, violent moodswings. Yeah...not going to explain that one..."Live your life" This has to be the single feeling thing I've ever said to myself that was intended as an insult but comes out nicer than expected.

...closing up

Questions? Concerns? Any continued feedback?

No, I'm good~

:kitty: :p: :p:

I'll say something. Thanks for accepting my apology. I'm overly proud of myself and rarly apologize for anything that i do. But like i said i'm sorry. As for what i think of you, well i've said it many times i think you are a good person when you really get down to the grit. But not everyone can really get close to you, you know what i'm sayng. Everybody has their own set of personal problems some apparant and others hidden, just some of yours is kind of on the outside a bit with certain people you talk to. I hope this makes some sense and i'm not just rambling.

One that statement about losing me was a joke.
Two I dont take orders from a homuculus (No offenese) so i wont go away
Three that comment was directed toward XGhostX
Four that was a question i was wondering if i understood your message right.

And adding flames to the fire only makes it consume more, including innocent bystanders.

Actually technically at the moment I'm major general , whereas you are a warrant officer. Who pulls rank?
Also the I made a joke to compliment yours on the loosing statement
It was in my thread so guess what, I get to respond.
Yeah and I was asking where the hell you got that question/conclusion


...So its the salem witch hunts aye? Set the innocent bystanders on fire.

Sorry Major General Sir. I thought you betrayed us over to the Homuculus side. :P .

ANd why not set the innocent bystanders on fire. It could be fun......................................................................right?

Eh. Those who burn the innocent may well find themselves in the prosecutors fire. (Zealot moment)

In that case you ummmm..................RUN AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, or blame some one else.

"What else burns?"
"MORE WITCHES!!!!!"

Sorry but i have to interject for a minute here... Don't give that "I don't take orders from Homunculus" s**t okay. We've been down this road again and just because they are in a different group does not give you the right to talk like that to ANYONE on the forum wether they be part of the Homunculus group or the State Alchemist group, it's just a "tag" nothing more. Not only that but Blood Metal is one of the oldest (if not the oldest) remaining members on the forum, you should give him a wee bit more respect then that.


Not only does he outrank you in the Military but as far as oldest members on the board he outranks you also. And like he said this IS his thread. I'm not trying to be hard on you but those types of comments is UNACCEPTABLE on this forum.

:lol: :D :P :huh: :o ;)


originally it was ment as a joke, but fine i wont sya jokes like that again sir.


:wnk: :p: :blink: :ph43r: :(

It's okay but you see we had a little problem with that before with the splitting of members just because they was in a particular group, so all i'm saying is that don't even joke about that. It's okay you didn't know anything about that, but now you do know.

okay...............

so back to randomness

"D'oh"

Geez that hurt!!! Fine i am leaving then good bye If anyone wonders where i am tell them i left this fourmn.

you can find me on Resinbool Rangers or Anime Eden

*leaves*