~Thursday, February 23rd~12:18 pm~
during the last month and a half or so I have been keeping a chocojournal on gaming force forums (GFF) but for the last two weeks, the site has been under construction...I also haven't had any contact with my friend Rick for the same amout of time. His family is homeless and I think they have been staying with his uncle but I'm not sure.
Couldn't sleep last night...been trying to wean myself off one of my meds (I think it's an anti-psychotic or something...:wacko:) I was freaking out and going nuts about a year ago wanting to die, but I had a reality check a couple months ago and I think I'm all set...I realized that I really need to be there and be strong for my little sister who is going through a hard time right now due to family circumstances. the only problems I"ve been having with trying to go off the med is I can't sleep (cuz I take it at night and it puts me to sleep) and as a result of the lack of sleep I've been having increased headaches.
So I tried going to sleep around 8:30 last night, somehow fell asleep and then woke up at like 11:50(pm) then couldn't fall back asleep cuz I got myself all riled up thinking about how much I hate some kid at school who keeps harrassing me and picking on my friend so I got up and wrote out what to say when I confront him tomorrow or the next time there is an issue. I confronted him once before about how I'm sick of his harrassment and he stopped for a while but he started back up again yesterday. So I wrote that out and then watched Billy Madison. Then I tried going back to sleep.
My head is pounding...I have been taking asprin and Excedrin but it still hurts...it might be a sinus headache though cuz I'm a bit stuffy so maybe I should try some sudafed.
Oy, I think that is all for now.
~Friday, February 24th~1:10 pm~
The deeply disturbing thing about my life is that probably the only guy I have the slightest chance with at school goes around school and openly tells people that he is "deeply disturbed" (he's a 'furry' fan and plans to become a genetic engineer so that he can create a race of furries :huh:)
I actually got a decent night of sleep last night and am having a fairly good day. Chances are I won't be able to get back on here for another week or so cuz I have vacation next week and don't have internet at home.
and thus is my life.
grrr... Gaming force forums is back up but all old accounts have been deleted, and so has my choco journal :angry: oh well, life will go on...but I still haven't heard from Rick in weeks...
we had vacation last week...all I did was sleep...work...watch movies...eat a little etc.
Friday night I got a really bad headache and a sore throat, Sunday I went to the hospital to get medicine for my eye (I am a walking recipe for conjunctivitis...I work at a daycare and I have a horrible habit of touching and rubbing my eyes). I still had a sore throat so I asked them to look at that and though it was only "minimally red" they took a throat culture to check for Strep ("just in case" cuz they have been getting a lot of cases of it). I have to call back tomorrow for the results.
Now my headache is gone but my throat still hurts.
gotta go