My names Amber
i love to write its my world i cant remember when i started but heres the catch
My spellings shocking and im sorry about that ihave dyslexia but that dosnt change the fact i love to write.
For me i dont get to choose when i write somthing its just when inspiration strikes which unfortunatly can be anywhere and anytime, you could probly imagen this has gotten my in troubble at times like at school here an example.
In maths the teachers talking like always she dosnt stop my minde wanders and i beging to wonder what Carlys going to sing oN AI that night so there i sit day dreaming the suddenly it hits my i began to scribble away not paying attention to the teacher and she comes over and goes "Amber whats the answer??" and i sit there like OMG what do i say then im like "beats me" then she goes off on this whole "you should be listening to me not being stupid" speech.

XOX amber
PS my stuff isent all about carly but there is some stuff about her not that its anygood ill post some soon :wave:

Carly Smithsons Poem

Carly Smithson
the Irish beautie
when she was little she was such a cutie
Her voice is that of an angels her eyes the prettiest blue
Carly Smithson i write this poem for you.

You are my idol my hero
Carly is the girl with the big voice and even bigger heart
Carly if i was to meet you i would know what to say
What would i do where would i start.

Carly smithson
the Irish beautie
when she was little she was such a cutie
her voice is that of an angels her eyes the deepest blue
Carly smithson i wrote this poem for you

The end
PS i know its kinda pathetic but i had it spring to mind nad had to write it quick so the math teacher wouldnt see

All my stuff is copywrite
I will shear most my stuff with you but some of its not grate im working on a video for carly right now along with a poster signd by my whole class, a photo of my class and a book of poems nad songs just for her.

hoping to have it finished soon so far i have spent 6 hours on the video not all at once mind you but i want ti to be nothing short of perfect which is why im thinking of deleting it nad starting it again.

Love amber :heart:

GIVE HER A BREAK

lies and deseption
no cell phone reseption
lies hurt lies burn
shes been through so much
and yet you continue to tell lies about her

give her a break please let her be
the good reputation she earnt you try so hard to tarnish
becearful you might be the one to get burnt
car crash, plain crash, devorce and pain

leave her alone dont be mean
shes a star danceing and singing main
cant you give her a break
after all.........
all you can do is the best you can do
lies and deseption
no cell phone reseption
shes been stalked by crazed fans yeah
the nasty things you people say is unfair
so she behaves strangly maybe shes tyred
after she has SDD yeah its not fair

wheres god when you need him she wonders
give her a break leave her alone
let her be happy
let her by with out judgment
let hetr be give her a break
let her be let her be let her be
let her be happy
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A poem i wrote for Paula off american idol

Lie's and Deception

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Lie's and Deception
hurt and pain
no cellphone reception
whats there to gain?

I played with fire
Yeah i played with fire and i got burnt
I begged you to push the swing higher

I played with fire
yeah i played with fire and i got burnt
tell me daddy is this something i earnt
i was only a child yeah
a child so blind to trust you over and over
the way you treated me wasent fair

but i dont think you cear
did you ever see?
did you ever see what your lie's were doing to me?
lei's and deception
hurt and pain
no cellphone reception
whats there to gain
hurt and pain

whats there to learn from
lie's and deception
and hurt and pain :shamrock:

My Sister (Cassie) !

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Emrald green eyes
tells no lie's
locks of chocolate brown hair
dresses with flair
many friends this is the beggining not the end

heart of gold never woried of growing old
slim but never dim
always was there always ceared
smile white as pearls
fashionable girl
never too early never late
always around
fell asleep in her dinner plate

always one to joke always one to laugh
had to watch her brother begin to choke

always ceared never worried about who was to appear
left home was never alone
this is my big sister
emrald green eyes
twells no lie's
never worried of growning old
will always be my sister
nomatter what she says
watched white doves fly away

my sister my hero


PS i wrote this for my sister about my sister who i miss so much she left home a few years ago and i havnt seen her in ages :heart: :cry:

LOVE OF MY LIFE
oh you were my baby
what happened to us?
you said i was your lady
what happened to us?

i love you with all my heart
why did we break up oh why?
my love for you is so real it hurts to breath
i think of you all the time
there aint no maybe
i love you baby
we were good together
made each other strong
i thought we would be together for ever
where did we go wrong?
what happened to us?

i love the way when you kissed me nothing else mattered
you made me feel like a queen
i felt safe in your arms i felt wanted and love
like being in an alsome dream.

every time we touched i felt sparks fly
why oh why baby did i let you go why?
the love i feel for you will always be there
am i makeing my self crystle clear

DADDY

you use to come and visit me
you said you loved me i belived you
god how stupid can children be
i never thought it would happen the day you would lie to me
that stupid wife of yours
took you away from us
it was like being hit by a bus
you dont no how it feels no
please daddy im begging you just go
why did you come if this is what you were gonna do
you took me to mount egmont and threw me off the top (emotionally)
i screamed at you daddy pleading for you to stop
i dont wann know daddy just go
your wife so stupid thought she was hit by cupid
you lieing cheating scum
tell me why do i still love you
when you never loved me or my mum
your not worth it
yet part of me will always love you

DANCE

all my life i wanted ta dance yeah
and this year i got my chance i started dancing class
i try and i try but you dont like what i do
you yelld at me i was nearly there
well miss im not as flexie as you
i only just started course im gonna fall a few times and land on my a$$

Im dumb but im not a moron you dont need to talk to me like that
i thought you were nice but your not your kinda mean
we arnt little kids we are at collage we dont need to sit on the mat
so please dont yell at me when i get something wrong
coz in that inviroment i cant learn it will take twice as long

OK I DIDENT WRIGHT THIS BUT I WANTED TA SHEAR IT WITH YOU ANYWAY
(WRITTEN BY A GUY)

TRUE

I know way too many really beautiful girls who think they don't look good... It hurts... because it's our fault, guys I mean. We make girls feel like they have to be perfect. You know what I mean, flat stomach, big boobs, round booty, long legs, sexy lips, and on top of all that, they have to dress like a whore, and be one as well... nobody can measure up to that... and its not fair... because nobody should have to. The little imperfections are what make people special. If everyone was perfect the world would be so boring, variety is what makes life interesting. So guys, stop making girls have to live up to your, I'm sorry, our... deluded fantasy visions of perfection. Stop acting like boys and start being men... realize that women don't exist to fufill our sexual desires. Stop talking to them solely to get with them, be nice to them because you want to be their friend, not because you want to hook up with them. Say nice things about them not to flatter them but to make them see its true

Green Eyed Angel

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Green eyed angel
oh green eyed angel tell me why
why i desurve to be lied to and pushed away

green eyed angel im hanging over side a bridge
the only thing keeping me safe is your warm hand pulling mine
please dont let go hold on tight
or i shall fall how far i have no clue
how hard i shall land is unsure
please pull me up towards you

hold on tight dont let go make it right
its your actions that have put me here in this posisition
so hold on tight make it right

let me go watch me fall then ill no how little you really love me
hold on tight. rescue me from the fall
ill see how much you love me after all
love from aunty to neece

dont leave me hanging all alone
coz soon ill slip and that will be something you cant undo

Alone Alone Alone

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im all alone alone alone
nobody else is home home home

im crying in the corner pushing down harder and harder
the blade to blunt to cut me
screaming i want to be free

free from hurt and pain. hurt and pain
the bullying starts again and again
kids teast again and again

i promise my slef i shall be free
free to roam the blue blue skys
free to do as i whish
no more tears will fall from these eyes

once the blade does as it should
ill leave my body cold and lifeless oh
cold and lifeless on this floor made of wood

i want to be treated like they treat each other
but that wont ever happen
cold lifeless body on the floor of wood
please someone say goodbye to my mother

just know when im gonne it will be you fault
and all the things you didand all the things you said
shall burn a hole in you brain the memory wont refrain

WHEN IM GONNE

Unpredictable

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shuch beauty and sugh grace
she can dance at a fast pace
a lovly person
a wrighter a fighter
a voice made to sing
float like a butterfly burn like a bee sting

you follow your feet trust your heart
you will find your way home
the way she speaks is such an art

all you can do is the best you can do
she smiles so white and bright
she dances past you
a twinkel in her bright blue eyes
she winks at you smiling you get such a supprize

you see i told you so us women are unperdictable
you think ill go right but i got left
leaving you standing alone
stearing and gawking
some of you silly men are accident prone

one women

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one women standing her ground
while those she knows scatter and run around
but this strong women is her to stay

he hits her and beats her
she cowers but waits it out
it hurts, it stings but she refuses to run away

one day he crosses the line she shouts
she screams and yells, rants and raves
showing him shes not sceard not running away
he is so shocked he beginns to cave
seeing he is beaten he begins to cry
he hopes she will give him a chance to leave

she screams why after watching him cry
her eyes red from crying her throat sore from yelling
she lookes at him pity etched in her face
her brused arms and legs seem to grow stronger with each word

you may think it sounds absurd
but standing over this cowering man
the strong women offers him her hand
helping him to his feet
she siad "you do not treat anybody this way"
she said it with strength to show this wasent a joke
you shall hand you self in tamorrow day

Im not who you want me to be

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OOC: this poem is about some people who tryed to change me and after a while i began to cave i became an awful person. but thankfuly i found the strength to take my life back to take the weel and say "hay im not clay im not who you want me to be" so if verry real for me it might not be that great but its a real feeling for me.


Im not who you want me to be
im not perfect im human too
leave me alone please i need to find
find out exactly who i am inside who exactly is me
what do i like and what do i hate yeah

give me space
let me find my face
let me find my feet ill shoe you all
this girl gets up when she falls


im not who you want me to be
i cant do it anymore No
i cant stad the heat
ill show you ill be free
you dont get a say get out just go

im taking back my life im taking the weel
you cant make me be like you
you arnt a true friend you dont know how i feel
ill be who i want to

im finding my feet
ill find my face give me space
ill show all i get up when i fall

the best you can do is all you can do after all

Give me a chance

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fighting and yelling trying not to cry yeah
its been like this seems like forever
you dont give me a chance no
no chance at all to finish what im trying to say
it not very fair no not is no fair
i see no point in carring on so ill just go

maybe you will realize oneday
im not a kid anymore i know what i wanna say
i know what i mean so give me a chance
a chance to talk
a chance to explain & say what i have to say
dont cut me off or away ill walk
this isent verry fair
not fair at all you will never no
if you dont let me talk
if you keep cutting me off im gonna go
lets walk, we can walk and talk

and maybe one day you will see
im not a kid i know what i wanna say
im not a kid i have idears on what i wanna be oneday
on day one i told you it wouldent change
no it wouldent change at all
now im finished i hand you the ball

guess what now its your turn
shoot somthing back try to be wittl
go on give it a shot give it your all

im not witty but i had a shot
& hopfully my point you got

THIS IS RANDOM BUT HONEST

(no name yet)

how could you?
i dont understand
i must be a moron because i cant let go
i cant let go of you even after all you have done NO
i dont understan why you hurt people
or why it is that the booze is so appealing to you
yep go ahead call me dumb
go on i dear you too
tell me i am too much like my mum
i dont cear at least im not like you
tell me im stupid you never loved me
go on i dear you too
coz i know other wise
yes i know the truth
everytime i look at you i see it in your eyes
you dont tell the truth and i belive your lies
but this is one lie i can see through i see the truth in your eyes
OH in your eyes OH OH OH
i may be dumb but i can see
the way you realy feel about me
so i ask why?
why the lies the hurt and the pain???
frome it all what do you gain
seeing me cry knowing you can screw with my head... my heart
WOW thats shellow a new low
even for your when passing out is your art

you can turn and leave
like you always do
but daddy you should know by now you cant stop me
you cant stop my heart i dont switch my emotions off at will
God the only way you can look at me is when your drunk

am i that ugly do you hate me that much
there isent really an awnser is there???
this is just the scum you are

MORE THAN MEETS THE EYE

To you i may look Heartless oh
but im not heartless no
the things you say
i feel them hit me hard each and everyday

i just dont show it
because i dont see the point
there are things i feel in my tummy pit
but i dont show it

the blows you throw i take
the scars will always be on my heart
baked in like a cake
and when im alone all alone
the blood flows free mixing with me tears
leaving patterns like a work of art

and you will never see
no you wont ever see
just what you have done to me
coz life is over rated and i dont see the point
i hate not being able to see the light
i hate being left all alone in the dark
its partly your fault
you will never see
ill never let you see just what you have done to me

FIRST TIME I SAW YOU
(for carly)

lying on the floor bearly listening to the tele
a glance now and then is all i gave it
then you came on as soon as you began to sing
that all changed in an instand you made me move positions to sit
my eyes felt glued to the tele i couldnt pull them away

My heart began to beat faster and faster
i waited to see weather youd get in
all the while i was murmering "come on come on" under my breath
sighing with relife when you made it a smile crept on to my face
being able to sing that well
being able to pull at peoples heart stings like you did mine
Clearly that must be a sin

Through the whole season i would watch
through the whole season i was rooting for you
no matter what you sung i liked it
no matter what your soing choice it always had feeling
i was shocked when you had to go
and wished it wasnt so.

I know that no matter what you will go far
carly Smithson your my idol
im to shy to say
ill yell to loud
ill yell it proud

GO CARLY GO :heart:

A INSPERATIONAL QUOTE
there come's a time in your life when you realize who matters, who neverdid and who always will, so dont worry about people from your past because there is a reason they didnt make it to your future

REALIZEATION

I never thought I could be anything other than what you told me to be.
I never thought I could do anything other than what you wanted me to do,
No I never thought in a million years
That I could be who I want to be
I guess I never realized that you have no control over me
You are just a bystander to my life
You may not make it to my future; you may stay in my past
I never thought that my dreams would ever last

This is all thanks to you
This is what you made me believe
I tried so hard to make you happy
Everything I did I did for you, every breath I heaved
But not to long ago I found out what it is to be used
I realized im not a door mat
All thanks to you my dreams have been abused
Don’t try to stand there and tell me im fat

I am sorry to say but that doesn’t work any more
I am me through and through
Ill do what I want be who I want
Yeah mate im fat sure……. Sure
For the pain you caused there is no cure
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PS funny thing i have had many people say to me this is my million dollar peice but i just dont see it

RUNAWAY TEEN


walking through an air port just got off the plane
gather my luggage and walk out side
its slightly breezy out its beggining to rain

as i walk down the street i look around me
i like what i see
lush green grass and old cobbled roads
people out and about
children on their lawns playing

i pull my sauitcase behind me the weels on the ground
makeing quite a hollow sound
Theres a tiny scrap of paper in my hand on it written your adress
my arms aching but i couldnt cear less

im in a new country iv come to see you
maybe i shoulda called first
but thats not my style not when it comes to you

i spot your house and smile there you are right out side
as i reach your gate you turn around
i smile at you at loss for words
i see your jaw drop straight to the ground

suddenly im awake and realize it was a dream
knowing that i may never see you agin makes me wanna scream
you like my other mum and i want to get away from NZ and have some fun

IS LIFE REALLY FAIR??

fluffy white clouds floating in the skys
rolling blue oceans
light dancing on our eyes
running throug the lush green grass
sitting in the shady trees at the old church
windows made of stained glass

laughing, jokeing ,singing
free to the world an never gonna for get it
whilst mean while oover seas in worlds far away
children our age are suffering
walking the streets alone no where to stay

poverty and ilness robbing them of their families
how is this fair
it not and never will be
infact its nowhere near

WHAT MOST NEW ZEALANDERS TEAKES FOR GRANTED!

New Zealand has lush green rolling hills
lovely bright sunny days and the blue blue skys
whilst in some countries they cant aford things they need like medacins & pills

There are so many conutries that are poverty stricken
whilst here in NZ kiddies sit ice block licken
did you ever realize how ironicly sad the world is?
ever stop to think about the people who dont have a dry warm place to sleep
ever stop to think about the people who dont have enough food to eat
when you throw away so much?

those who are so ill in deaths clutch
ther children with out families
whilst here in NZ little girls doubble dutch?
im one alone and cant do much on my own
but did you ever think how much we could achive if we teamed up

here in NZ clean drinking water is free
other people arnt as lucky as you and me

BEST FRIENDS

i sat at the computer you by my side
i was on the shania forums
you were talking to me.
you smiled and siad you never knew someone who could talk and type together,
i grinned taking it as a compilement, made me feel good inside

we laughed and joked for some time
i began to Pm a friend
you looked at me funny
you smiled and siad "oh pming your boyfriend"
laughing i smiled an shhok my head

after explaing the truth i thought youd let it go, but oh no
my friend your a god send
you cracked up laughing everytime i saws you and teased "hows your boyfriend?"

THE POWER OF MUSIC

Sitting in my room listening to music,
The same song over and over again, Black eyes blue tears by Shania Twain
I crank up the volume louder and louder
Drowning out the sorrow drowning out the pain
Crying so hard I can’t breathe suddenly I stop
I listen to the words and the message I finally got

Wiping away the tears
I push up off the floor
I realize I have let the kids at school do this to me for almost 2 years
I pick up my ipod and run for the door
I run to catch the bus to school and when I get there……
The group of bullies begin to shout at me there words hit hard for a moment
But I continue to walk head held high like I don’t even cear
I walk past the bullies leaving them in oar.

I smile at my friends as they approach
The bullies are following
But they are squashed by my confidence just like a ‘roach’
I smile at my teacher as in to first class I float
I pass the test with a whopping 100% but I don’t gloat
At lunch I am still smiling and my secret is my music
My ipods full of Shania twain
There are songs about everything even pain
I feel so connected when my friends ask about my attitude change
My excitement I can barely contain

I play them a song and they too love what the hear
The next day at school there ipods are the same
Im glad I found Shania’s music this year
We laugh and have fun playing our game

Not letting the bullies get to us or cause us pain
Shania’s music is like a soulful train
You never get sick of it
I listen to it again and again

WE CAN FLY

Just hold my hand
we will get through oo ooo it
trust in me
baby you will se
we will fly
just you and i


So take my hand
baby we will get through it,
trustin me
you will see
nothing you could ever say
would make me wanna leave you today
leave you today
leave you today

Nothing you could say
would make me wanna leave you today
you can do anything just give it a try
baby i never want to see you cry

If i had my way we would just fly away
if i had my way nobody would ever make you cry
take my hand we will get through oo ooo it
trust in me
baby you will see
we can fly just you and i

MISSING YOU

I am sitting think of you
im wondering what i could do
i miss hanging around with you oooo ooo

we used to be so close all of a sudden things changed
Now dont get me wrong
im so happy for you
now dont get me wrong
im glad your dreams are coming true

but i miss goofing off with you
i miss late night myspace sessions talking with you
i miss knowing
that you were there
whilst i was celebrating summer where you are it was snowing

Oh now dont get me wrong
im glad things are looking up for you
i just wish i could come and see you,
i know that your bussy and i should stay
yes i should stay away

but i cant help but miss you oo ooo
you smile and your eyes
they way we laughed till we cryed
oh now dont get me wrong i know i should stay
yes i should stay away

Hay guys
i hope you like my stuff and i hope its not to weird or over powering
i speak through writing and everything i write is about things i have felt, seen, done,been through or that of my loved ones

XOX amber
PS stay safe

Cazza dreaming

Cazza was dreaming of a new career she wanted so bad
her family first this was just a fase, just a fad
they realized they were wrong
when they heard their daughter singing her song
getting behind her 100% they helped her on her way

Cazzs cousin smiled and showed her she ceared
she continues to this very day
knowing her cousin was happy was all she needed
or so she thought
loosing their bond was not what she had expected
loosing her best friend she had not counted on

yet to this day she carries on
supporting her cousin
in every singel way

Hello everyone
okay i dont know if anybody even reads my stuff LOL but if you do i thought i would give you an update on my carly video
i have been working like a mad women on this thing i have now basicly finished the only thing i have to do it put it on Play-by play nad put a song to it, the hard this is choosing a song im trying to find out what carly nad tods fave song(s) are so i can make it perfect.

Whew... Just read them all! They are really great!!!! :yes: I dont know what Carly and Todd's favorite songs are. You could submit a question about that to Marie. But I know Carly really likes Heart, and the song These Dreams would probably fit really well :)

Thanks

ill post the links in a tick,
um i decided im going to put a song from Vonda Sheppard to it, the song is called I only wanna be with you,
it suits the video to a T,

i am sending away parts of the prezzie at a time, coz its from me and my friends the carlys angels LOL and yeah

heres the links

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6RokB0-pgo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aEzsUYKWpQs

i was thinking of posting my essay on carly its long but its about her and how she changed my life ETC